Sometimes, we go through painful situations that make us feel like we’re being punished or abandoned by God. Most often in our moments of deep agony, we feel completely alone and ostracized. We begin to think that no one understands how we feel so we isolate and then the pain even begins to hurt so much it eats at us because we have no lifeline to save us.  

Before I get into it, I need everyone to understand that it is a lie from the pits of hell whenever we feel abandoned by God. God has never and will never abandon us. We have the assurance of His word. Most often, we step away from Him and that is why we think He is far away. Because it is true. We moved away. That’s why the altar call is depicted as us running back to Him. He has always been where He is. We, His people, move away.

Now back to the point, there is always a purpose in our pain. There’s always a reason for it. And what we make of that situation is completely up to us. Last year, I was in so much pain. I thought to myself several times that I am like a dead person walking this earth.

I was existing and not living. The pain of so much loss had crippled me and sucked the life out of my life. I began to feel the heat of the situation when music didn’t do anything for me.

I don’t know when I fell in love with music but all I know is I have always loved it. I am most emotional when I listen to music. I choose my music based on the emotional responses I get from it so it is usually a shock to people who get access to my playlist. It is so random. Or not.

Now back to my story. For years I have been hurting and brushing the pain aside. I lose something, I just dust myself off and move on to the next agenda. I hardly allowed myself to feel my feelings and take stock of the situation and see how it could have gone better so I could incorporate the lessons the next time. one thing I also did often was blamed myself. I never held people accountable and I took responsibility for their flaws. Some would say, I took Akon’s song too seriously.

So, last year when everything went to hell and my dreams came crashing down, I had no escape. I was in so much constant pain that it even turned physical. but here’s what happened to me in the pain, I found who I can be and I decided to be that person. For years I poured into people’s dreams and lives and now, I have decided to keep that same energy with myself. I am becoming more self-aware and less impulsive.

So, the purpose of my pain was to learn to think things through and actually analyze things before I get involved. I didn’t use to do that before but now; I have learnt the pros and cons of every situation.

When we go through moments of pain, we should always look at the silver lining and trust God that all will be well.

Look at Jesus when He was on the cross. And look at us now. Thanks to that pain we can call God, Father.

Dear reader, you are not alone. There is purpose in your pain. Ask God to reveal it to you.

Love you and rooting for you!