I know I’m not the only one who has wanted something so badly that they’d been crushed when they didn’t get it. I know as Christians sometimes we come up with all these quotes and sayings that are supposed to help us keep going after disappointments or to keep hope going while waiting. One of the sayings I wasn’t a fan of was “even His no has His love all over it” I never for once loved that quote. It sounded like gibberish until I lived it myself. You see like the story of the Samaritan woman at the well. When you get to the tail end of the story, the people come up to her and tell her they don’t just believe because she said some things about Jesus but it\s because they have experienced him themselves and so their faith is not based on hearsay but on personal experience and encounter (that is how Christianity is supposed to be by the way. It shouldn’t only be about what you’ve heard because sometimes, that may fade away. You need an experience of your own to truly really believe).

So, back to my experience with the quote. If you’re an avid listener of my podcast, Baawa Unfiltered https://spotifyanchor-web.app.link/e/dyJBldG26xb (available on all podcast streaming platforms), you’d know that in mid-2021, I embarked on a journey to be a homeowner (heck, that’s how I met the man who shattered my heart but that’s a tale that’s been told too many times it has lost its appeal), I found my dream home in North Legon and per the conversations I’d had with the rep from the bank, it ticked every box for me. So, I saw the house on a weekend so come Monday morning, I’m on the phone with the bank trying to get the ball rolling on the purchase and then I’m hit with a “Sorry, you no longer qualify for this package” listen I was distraught ok because after experiencing home insecurity for most of my life I thought I could finally breathe and feel safe. So, when that happened, I was beside myself with grief. You already know my and God’s conversations were going to be about me doing too much. Throughout the ordeal, my mom kept telling me God knows best and I kept seeing the aforementioned quote on social media. So, after a while, I deleted the photos of the house and took a break from house hunting because I needed to get my money up so that I could try again. So, fast forward to last year, the economy was going crazy and the dollar rate was wild, then in church during the sermon, God reminded me when the pastor commented on the dollar to cedi rate of when I was going to buy a $100,000.00 house using a dollar mortgage. At that moment, I knew I would have been beyond stressed if I was paying mortgages with the way the rates were acting up and, at that moment, I saw that the no in 2021 was for my good. And then that quote became real to me. I became more open and accepting of His no’s because I finally saw that those no’s are always going to work out for my good. That thought helped change the game for me and fast-forwarded me moving on from the heartbreak I suffered in march of 2022.

I know it hasn’t been an easy journey to get to where I am. Grateful for the constant disappointment I’ve faced but I am learning daily to trust in God and His timing because if nothing at all, I know that he has His eyes on me no matter what the voices in my head tend to tell me. So, if you are reeling from one of His no’s I’m here to tell you that there’s a purpose behind it. You may not see it now but it exists. Have faith and know that it is well. Praying for you. Love you. Stay in faith and hope. It will work out eventually.