Dear Rapha,
I got my mind right. Our family and our future are too precious for me to throw away over a counterfeit. So, I have decided to seek professional help. I’ll get therapy to deal with all my issues so that when we eventually meet and give us a go, you’ll have the best version of me. I’ve always wanted to give the best of me to you. I’ve never done that with anyone and so, that goes to show that I’m always thinking about you and looking out for you. I’ve been waiting for you for a long time but now, you’ll have to wait for me. Baby, can you do that? I’m still damaged and broken and a lot messed up. This is not me you need. I’m a walking red flag. Let me be green and hopeful again. Then we’ll meet at the path where our hearts meet and join our lives together to create the family we’ve always prayed for. I was reminded of who I used to be in church today and I want to mix that version of me and this version. Pick all the good parts of both and create the ultimate person. It’s gonna be a while but baby, there’s no rush. I know that now. I want forever with you so I have to come correct so that we can have that. You are my wildest dream, R.

Love you,
B