Why did I start this section? Because I feel like a hot mess and I believe I’m not alone and I want to show other people that they’re not alone.

I actually feel like a hypocrite. I’m a big advocate for purity but I still struggle with my own purity. This is about to get real honest real fast. I’m part of Transformation Nation that is everyone who is outside Tulsa, Oklahoma but worships with Transformation Church. Transformation Church refers to itself as a H. O. T. church which means Humble, Open and Transparent. So, hence the section name.

Now, let’s talk about my HOT moment. I’m ovulating and if you’re a woman you know it’s quite hellish considering how horny you’ll become. Maybe it’s just me. Well, I had struggled with masturbation years before I actually broke my virginity and I am still reaping the repercussions 😩. You guys who haven’t had sex yet should wait till marriage for real. Don’t do it. It’s not worth it honestly.

So, here I am feeling like a hypocrite because my sexual urges are through the roof at the moment and I’m tempted to do a lot of dumb stuff. Do you know what the HOT moment is? I already did something dumb. So, that’s my HOT moment. Now, my question is, do I not love God enough to be faithful and stay pure? I know I do but how am I doing stuff I don’t want to do honestly. Seriously, this is a cry for help so HELP.