I finished my national service a while back and prior to that I was job hunting. Surprisingly nothing panned out but that doesn’t bother me as much as I thought it should. I never wanted to study what I studied if I’m being totally honest. I wanted something else. I’ve always wanted something else. My desires have always been on opposite sides of that of my parents’. They want what’s best for me like every parent but what if their best is not necessarily my best. Most people have thrived on paths their parents chose for them. I say kudos to them. I know I’m not at the stage to be experimenting with my life because I’m hella grown and I need to be paying my dues. But I haven’t lived. If it were up to me, I’d take a whole year to play hooky and travel the world and experience the rich culture that is all around us. I have a crazy affinity for languages. I’m fascinated by how differently one thing can be expressed. I love food but which fante doesn’t. When I am in the kitchen and I have complete control I get into this zone and in my head, I think I could actually be a chef. And then there’s writing. I love it. It’s actually therapeutic for me. I plain love it. I would honestly judge that I’m not that good at it but I really love it and if there’s one thing I want; it is to actually be good at it. That’s why this blog exists. There are times I think I could’ve written the movie better or the episode could do with a certain twist. There are so many things I wish I could be? So I’m asking if I could really have it all? I’m beginning to understand how come I let someone else ran my life all these years because this is hard work. So many options available and decisions need to be made stat. But I wonder why I’m giving myself deadlines when I promised myself I’d stride instead of strive on this new journey. My dream job lets me do everything I want. I guess that’s why it’s a dream job. How many dreams have died because reality was always up in the persons face? So will I be an accountant, lawyer, writer, chef or a travel blogger? What is the next step? Where do I go from here is a question I ask myself daily. My life seems to be in limbo and we all know how uncomfortable and confusing that is. Or maybe we all can’t relate. Someone told me that at this stage of my life, we’re all just figuring things out but in my opinion, is think some already have figured it out. Who would I be in the next couple of years? I don’t know but I guess neither do you. So here’s what I’m going to do, I’m going to keep doing everything I love as much and as well as I can while I can. Maybe just maybe I could have it all. Cheers to finding our paths and living our lives how it was purposed.