Growing up, I identified myself as a shy kid. I quite frankly always describe myself as an introvert but many would undoubtedly disagree-that is those who are in my inner circle. But I am really a shy kid. I’m a really curious person and well we all know what curiosity did to the cat, right? There’s this saying that goes that curiosity killed the cat- just to jog the memory, ha-ha. Let’s get to business then. I’m pretty sure you’re wondering what on earth is this girl going to say about shyness & curiosity. Nothing really to answer that question but walk with me. I’m sure I can make sense somewhere in all my ramblings.
As a shy kid, I stayed away from far too many social gatherings so I guess I’m a bit socially awkward. As old as I am, not that old by the way, I’m now getting the hang of social mingling. I’m not really diplomatic because of my self-imposed isolation. That skill constantly eludes me. But I can proudly say these days I’ve not been putting my foot in my mouth. So back to whatever my point is -you guessed it, I have no idea what my point is but I’m going to fake it till I make it. Ha! As I was saying, being shy, I was very curious too so I read a lot of books, watched a lot of movies and shamefully, eavesdropped a lot too. I heard, read and saw things I wasn’t supposed to know at my age.
Now here’s the twist, I never experimented with any of those things I wasn’t supposed to know till I grew up a bit. Talking about my last year as a teen girl. I graduated high school, full of so many hopes and dreams till my curiosity killed the cat(me). Out of sheer curiosity, I saw a video and tried to mimic and ha! I hurt myself. It sent me into years of turmoil. I fell into this deep black hole of nothingness and brokenness. As a result, I believe that constant isolation is too bad a habit. So, my point is, there comes a time in a person’s life where you dabble in a bad habit. The after effects of such habits will always be damaging but it doesn’t always have to be bad. You may wish it never existed but it did. You can only be a survivor who helps others to survive.
Now, this is the conclusion of the matter, when you find yourself in a situation you never expected to be in out of sheer curiosity and experimentation, fight your way out of it till you get to the mountaintop a survivor. As a survivor, hold someone’s hand to get out that black hole. Let’s be neighbourly. Be each other’s keeper. Let’s love one another enough to help each other. If one day, you notice I’m on a destructive path, show me love and help me out. Because the most important thing of all is love.