I’ve been sitting here thinking of how to talk about this year. I’m literally stumped. I have no words and I don’t even know how long this post will be.

So something happened Dec 2024 and I tried to live and act like it never happened because I just didn’t want to deal with it but unfortunately I had to face it April of this year and my life went to hell as if it wasn’t hard enough already. I lost the man I loved( he didn’t die btw) and I quit my church. If you know me, you know I love serving in God’s house but I couldn’t do that anymore especially at my old church. So I left. I wasn’t frequent at services and when I was, I couldn’t stay for the sermon. So, after the incident that I told my boyfriend about, I found out so many things about the wolf in sheep’s clothing we both knew. And both of us left the church. We tried to mend our relationship but our wounds run too deep and we’ve since parted ways. He always says I’m painting him as a villain but if you’re reading, you’re not the villain in my story. The villain knows himself and even if he’s lying to everyone else and himself, he can’t lie to God. We weren’t perfect. Far from it actually but I bet without this between us, we could have worked out. But anyway, wish you the very best. I don’t have it in me to hate you. You did a lot of wrong things but this one’s on me.

Now, back to it. So, yeah I quit church. Not God btw. Still fighting for my relationship with God. This year, I started to dream. I began to take more of them into prayer and hopefully next year it gets sharper as well as my discernment. One thing I took away from all this brouhaha is that whatever the Holy Spirit tells me, at the first instance, I should act on it. Prior to the Dec incident, I had a dream but it was so absurd that I disregarded it and even assumed it was something else. In hindsight, if I had heeded it, maybe my heart wouldn’t be so broken. But anyway, I can’t undo it. I can only learn from it and keep living.

Another bizarre thing that happened to me in church again was someone lied about me. I mean two people lied but the second person’s lie was quite public and it influenced me to say goodbye to the youth group I loved handling so much. It broke my heart to leave them but I had to leave to live.

Honestly, I’m just starting to breathe again and in the midst of all that, I got my license and can’t wait for my car to come ☺️. I had a photo shoot for my birthday. I ain’t did that in a while so that felt good. I finished my masters degree and I’m waiting to graduate. I started my ACCA journey and boy am I stressed. But these are the things that make life worth living. I started a shea butter business called Sab’s Shea and it’s growing. My latest restock came with tears and what not but I’m in this to win. Entrepreneurship ain’t for the weak at all and thank God I’m built for this.

One thing I know is that no matter what comes my way in 2026, God has me covered. I’m protecting my peace henceforth and unlike Christ, I am giving no mor chances. I choose me now. I’ve been called selfish when I wasn’t and so now, I’m about to be just that. I started doing life for me lately. Didn’t wait for the new year and I love it. Every good thing I want to be doing in 2026, I started doing it.

Happy new year, folks! May 2026 be good to us.

Can’t wait to share my theme with you with my new year post.

Remember that no matter how dark the night is, morning will always come. You won’t be in pain forever but you also need to take charge of your life. This is your life! Only you and God should run it. Praying for you all and lots of love from me to you.