I have thought of a myriad of ways to start this post. I have even talked myself out of it so many times already. But here goes nothing: I am not looking for pity or consolation. I am just sharing an experience.

All my life I haven’t really had people stay. I believe everyone leaves, whether willingly or unwillingly. I sit, think over the years, and remember all those who have fallen out of the way. It normally breaks my heart, and then I used to question myself.

For a long time, I accepted that I was the problem. Everyone cannot be wrong, but then in recent times, I noticed how flawed that was. Relationships, regardless of their type, require two parties to work. Party A may definitely be the cause of the breakdown, but Party B definitely had a hand in it. Things aren’t so one-sided as I made myself believe. This morning, I didn’t actually set out to write this post. I had no desire to write. I just started my day, and I felt led to listen to a song. For some reason, I listened to it on YouTube, and that led to the desire to write. The song is linked here: https://youtu.be/MM3E18VuLiI?si=AH5fN2vncUBSDAxj.

What the song initially revealed to me is that this year, God still remains my constant. And that even if I am unfaithful, He remains faithful. I can rely on Him for everything that would come my way. As I listened further, I felt the need to introduce you to the God who is CONSTANT. The Man who walked into my life and never left. Every time, I have felt separated from God has been because I moved away from Him. When my friends moved on from me, all that remained was God. When the men I loved couldn’t do it anymore and left, God put me back together. When I faced rejection after rejection regarding my job applications, it was God who held my hand and wrapped me in His embrace to comfort me. When the waves came crashing down on my dreams to study abroad several times, there He was yet again. When I finally landed my dream job, there He was rejoicing with me. When I picked up writing again, I definitely caught a glimpse of a smile, and when I decided to start singing again, I knew He was right there.

In the ups and downs of life, there is one surety, and that is God. His word says in Isaiah 46:4,

I will be your God throughout your lifetime—
    until your hair is white with age.
I made you, and I will care for you.
    I will carry you along and save you.

This verse lets you know that God is here for each and every one of us, and regardless of who leaves or what we lose, we will never lose Him. This message is also endorsed by Deuteronomy 31:8,

Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

I highly recommend God. He isn’t afraid of our big emotions or little emotions. He already knows who you are, and when you finally decide to bear everything out to Him, He won’t run away and leave because you are “too much” or “too intense.” Your relationship with God is the only one you can be clingy in, and He would be absolutely thrilled with it. I am recommending God and not the church. Believers are the church, and they are humans who have limitations just like you and me. They may disappoint you, but do not use them to discount God. Let them even show the need to have more of Him in your life.

This year, run to God. He is constant. He gives the stability you’re craving. The safe space you crave can be found in Him. Choose Him today.