Hey,

It’s been a while. I’ve had confessions but I’ve never gotten around to writing them. I just couldn’t let this slip out of my hand.

So, today’s confession is

I want to be in a relationship. I want to love and be loved. I don’t know where this strong desire is coming from. I want to attribute it to the fact that it’s wedding season and I’m seeing a lot of wedding photos but I know I’m lying. I also want to blame loneliness and that’s not necessarily true.

The undisputed truth is that I have love to give and I also want to be loved in return. It has nothing to do with the current situation. I’m genuinely happy for everyone who is hitched, cuffed or whatever you’d call it.

My faith in love and relationships has been restored and I’m very grateful for that. My heart is seemingly healed.

If I’m ready, what’s stopping me is what you’re asking isn’t it? I promised myself after my last relationship to seek help professionally because I realized I picked the wrong guys constantly and I’ve realized it may or may not be related to my daddy issues and all that. I haven’t gotten around to doing that because it turns out therapy is costly and in my part of the world finding the right kind of help isn’t as simple as I thought it’d be.

I want to love and be loved by a special someone but I’ve got issues I need to deal with before I bring someone into the mix.

So, what am I saying? Love and relationships are beautiful. Make sure you are doing it because you’re ready and not because it’s trending.

Professing love when you’re unsure is damaging. Getting with someone when you’re lonely is also equally damaging.

Be wise! Be kind! Take your time.

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday!